bearbear’s world

Ya i’ve being really busy lately, so just some simple updates here

Last friday night i slept around 1.30am(saturday midnight), then at around 4.30am there this really loud sound going on the ceiling which woke my whole family up. We only find that the one piece of open ceiling is sort of moved so we figure it’s just some sesat animal tat past by. Fine, went back to sleep.

Then 10 minutes later, my mum called me saying that our house front gate is forced open. Worrying that the thief might still be in our house, we stay in the room and called for police. They came in like 10 minutes(credit to them), around 7 of them came and stay for like 20 minutes and they ronda around but found nothing thus they left. Leaving us with the mystery  opened front gate. If you wonder, no, we did not lose anything.

Actually there’s a camp on the same saturday and i was really tired which at a time i tot of not going.(it’s organized by my supervisor)But he called me early morning when i was sleeping and i blur blur tell him ok which means i hv to go -.-”. Cut short story i went to the camp and i’m damn exhausted.hehe….

Nothing much going on, just rushing some assignments and FYP. oh yes i found out tat people nowadays really wanna do everything last minute. we had a assignment of a group of 8 and 5 of us are normal student while 3 of them are repeating. They don’t even bother to find us and discuss for like 1 whole month so we submitted the assignment last week with only 5 names(not knowing what their names are), yesterday only they find us with their own work saying that the deadline is next week while it was last week(yesterday only we know who they are). omfg what kinda mentality is this?0.o

Being talking to my UK friends lately and one of them actually thinking of taking Master there, i talked to my dad yesterday and he say if i want it i should stay there for 1 year and do it full time. I still feel that it’s better that i come back first cos 1st, the living expenses is damn expensive and 2nd, my sis is still studying le…hmm…need to do some research about local institutes that offers such program…

As usual, got up 6.15am and leave my place at 6.45am…usually i’ll be able to avoid the jam and reach college bout 7.30am.

Yes i was expecting jam today cos of the parliment thing, but after 45 minutes i’m still at PJ and Federal isn’t moving at all, most of the time it’s standstill. So i thought of turning to NPE and skip out to Federal again in front of Midvalley. As i was happily turning, the radio announce that Mahameru is closed as well -.-” which means there’s no way i can go thru via federal and if i turn to MRR2, i’ll be at college like 9am whereby my class is from 8-10am.

So today is a holiday for me…well not really so as i got work to do, test to study and it’s like 8th week already better start doing some revisions. Hope you guys don’t get stuck in jam =p

I dream of us again last night, it was like in some kinda party and what i remembered the most was that i asked you why you didn’t talk to me anymore after we broke up, you said you were afraid, you don’t know how to face me as a friend. Somehow we hugged and i lie my head on your cheek, it was so comfortable and it really makes me missing the feeling that has being lost for so long.

When i woke up, i did not feel sad instead i realized something, why am i trying so hard to forget you?It is impossible to forget you, you are already part of my life. I should just keep you somewhere inside my heart and you shall just remain as memory. Perhaps the decision of not talking to me that you made was the right one, at least we won’t feel embarrassing when we talk. Yes i admit i was really disappointed with that but since you insist, i guess i shall just let it be. Like you said to me, whatever will be, will be.

For now, i’m lucky to have my family which is supportive and caring.  Guess i should just appreciate what i have instead of wasting my time thinking of what that has past. Getting my degree and be a better person, probably that’s the kinda aim i should go for at this stage of my life. =)

woot out of a sudden i’ve being MIA here for 1 month, no updates what so ever.

Well i’ve being busy, assignments and FYP has taken alot of my time. Well FYP wise i’m still kinda lost with so much reading to do and deadline are coming up real soon. (I spent most of the time looking at the books and typing thesis but end up doing something else =p)

I was a little depress 2/3 weeks back, don’t know why suddenly the love shit thing hit me again with all those memories, dreaming, saw her family somewhere, it just all came along and i was really bothered by it. I think some of the people i talked to even find me annoying that i can’t drop her just yet, well it was really a big lesson of my life, i love that relationship of us so much, it hurt me so much and i hope i really can drop it out of my mind with all the “what if” and be a better person. The 1st step is always the hardest, but i believe i’ve taken the 1st step. =)

Nothing much change yet, i still hate group assignments (haha! -.-”) but the other day i’ve learnt how to change car wheels (damn shame la drive for 5 years duno how to change XD). Another thing is that I find it annoying when people keep saying i’m rich, yes i may be driving a little more luxury car than what i should be but i wonder does saying me rich make them rich?lol I find it amusing how people can make conclusion without knowing me more. How do you define rich at the 1st place?If i’m rich then how bout millionaires?billionaires? Their money made of plastic?lol