bearbear’s world

Being really busy with my assignment this week, ya i’m sort of doing two person’s job thanks to my partner whom i don’t know what is he busy with. Mr partner, you know what to do when the next assignment come in right?LOL evil me…

Over the weekend i went for dinner with my family at Fatty Crab@Taman Megah, oh well it look promising cos when we are there all tables are full and we need to wait for bout 15 minutes before there’s a table for us. The food wise, really nothing much special except the Chilly Crab. Well not to say superb but something new and my sis hate it cos it was really spicy. Thing is i would have consider to go back but when the bill come, oh crap no thanks. Rm170 for 4 person(10 satays, 5 chicken wings, 1 fried rice, 500g prawn, 1.8kg crab + drinks) 0.o Mr Someone, no pictures cos i forgot to bring my phone..hahaha

When i was on the way back exiting Federal towards Subang, i admit i was driving a little fast perhaps 70km/h on the exit and there’s this myvi in front of me that brake all out of the sudden like she’s gonna hit something. For a moment i thought i’ve hit her cos i nvr come so close to a car bumper on road before!(of course with all the shouting and screaming from my sis and mum didn’t help either -.-). Thank god there’s no sound and i overtook her, guess what she’s doing?SMS!!!I’m really left speechless…

It was a Saturday night which i was really expecting your call but too bad my phone didn’t ring that night. On Sunday you told me the flight was full and your trip back is delayed once again. I guess perhaps i made a right decision to confront you rather than waiting for you to be back here, i don’t know how long i can last anymore pretending everything is ok when i’m talking to you.

Sometimes i wonder, is there really such thing as forever love?It’s already hard that you love someone for a long time but imagine two person still loving each other after a long period of time. I understand love do fade when time past, but isn’t it what love is all about?I really have a lot of trust in us but you tell me that our love has gone for a long time, do you realize how much it hurts when i’m trying so hard to maintain it?Is it because of the distance?I never expect answer from you anyway cos i know you will not tell me everything. Maybe i just know you too well.

Perhaps what i did was just nothing for you, maybe i’m just never good enough for you. But i can tell you it really hurts when you turn your back on me, life without you is boring, tasteless, dark and hopeless.

I don’t know what’s wrong with me lately, i keep dreaming of you, my dreams are full of you. Do i really love you that much?Till the extend of willing to forgive you, forget what you did and never ever mention it again?

People always say it’s hard to drop a relationship when you are still loving your partner, ever since i knew it i always tell myself so what if i lose you, it’s not the end of the world. I’ll get over you someday.

I can now say it’s not easy, at the very same time you are thinking of what you want. I guess it’s time for me to think again as well. Some might call me dumb or stupid but my love for you has rule over anything, maybe even my rational.

Maybe it is meant to be a test for us, if it is i hope we can live thru it, i really hope so.

I was suppose to wait but i don’t know what’s wrong with me that particular day. Everything got up to me and i confronted you, perhaps it was the biggest mistake i have ever make for us.

I have a feeling we will soon be stranger to each other, maybe because i know you too well. When you fall in love with someone you’ll be 100% into it and he’s everything to you, i know because i used to be the one you loved but sadly that wasn’t the case anymore.

I may be right or may be wrong, time will tell. Someone asked me, if you really turn back to me can my love for you remains the same?I will never have doubt on you again?I doubt so because everything will be different from the moment i knew it. Maybe it’s because i know i’m losing you that’s when i start to treasure you but seems like it’s too late. Guess it’s true people say human will only treasure when they lose it. Maybe i took things for granted, maybe i’m really such a horrible bf after all.

Hope to hear from you soon, whatever decision it is that you make i certainly learn alot from this experience. I know my life will never be the same again no matter what.

Ever since i found out about you and him, i always have this urge of ending everything btw us but i didn’t do it because i wanted to see you for one last time. I’m afraid everything will turn out ugly. The last time we went out i didn’t expect it will be the last time, i guess it’s true life is unpredictable.

I’m always looking forward to chat with you, looking for sign if i shall really hang on and wait or should i just gv up. I don’t get it why you didn’t even want to talk bout it when sometimes i jokingly talked bout 3rd party issue. Maybe you are afraid that you’ll hurt me, but the fact is you already did.

For the past few weeks i’ve being thinking alot, sometimes i said to myself i should just gv up, what’s the point of having you but your heart has gone?Then later i’ll be thinking of sticking to you and hope things turn up good for us. Guess i’m just being indecisive as u said as usual.

Maybe you’ll hate me when you find out that i knew about all these thing all along and didn’t confront you earlier, maybe you’ll be gone from my life forever, maybe i’m just being stupid to want to see you for one last time even thought you are no longer mine but at the very least i know, i should really let you go.